Uncut wings

I can't recollect a period when I wasn't distracted with my own integrity .  Am I great?  Am I great?  Be that as it may, am I sufficient?  Great is a word that kids hear early and frequently. A kid most likely hears the expression "be great" – as an admonishment, a summon, an argue – a few times each day from a few unique grown-ups. They may hear it so regularly that they won't generally make sure what great means but to realize that they completely aren't.  When I was in kindergarten I felt that decency existed as a major aspect of a parallel, as in possibly you were or you weren't. It didn't take me long to make sense of what side of the condition I fell on; regardless of how hard I attempted to hush up about my considerations, to remain at my work area, to model myself after the tidy young ladies who sat so still thus noiseless at circle time, it was never enough. I could see that decency worked out easily for a few people – I f...

I am writing about this surging madness that I can feel right now which compels me to force things my way. It makes me want to pull all my hair from my head. It makes me want to rip my tongue from my mouth. It makes want to yell at someone for no reason and watch shriek back at me. Unfortunately, it also makes me delve into the life of others and create a world of fantasy. This world has just one deity, that person I wanted to shout at initially. This same person who makes me think of stabbing her, behind the back if need be. I can control this flood of energy most of the times. I have developed a system of disaster management. I help save all of these people from what resides inside me. Though I can't help but drown . I witness from a distance my body suffer as it struggles and then chokes. I can't save it. I just focus on maintaining my distance. The usual. I become sad. Only being sad in my case is akin to being depressed. I remind myself of the days I spent staring at a w...

Q. If you could time travel and meet your 10-year-old self, what would you say? A.  Get started with Enid Blyton and don't wait for std. 6th when reading her books would be in curriculum. They are damn interesting. *As a 10 year old, I was stuck with the Black Beauty, Tom Sawyer and Animal Farm ( though I am still stuck with the last book) . Q.  If you could time travel and meet your 2-year-old self, what would you say? A.  You should let mom comb your hair for you, or else you'll be stuck with that curly mane of yours for a lifetime. *In hindsight, I think as a 2 year old I was rather stuck on eating than on my insufferable habit of not letting others touch my hair. But, nevertheless, if it could help me, it would make me only happier. Q.  If you could time travel and meet your 7-year-old self, what would you say? A.  Eat lesser than you swim, you are going to be a grumpy and obese teenager otherwise. ***Thankfully, my dad was wise eno...

Today, especially when I am feeling more creative than usual, I wrote this. Have a good time reading! Make like an artist. Rake, become a libertine like an artist. Discover new horizons like an artist. Recover your spirit like an artist. Dream like an artist. Gleam like an artist. Change the world like an artist. Create a world like an artist. Laugh like an artist, play like an artist. Go astray like an artist. Break your bounds, surpass the limits. Heck, bend the rules, Let the world drool, let it swoon at your every act. For once, let go of that tact. Be a free bird, Live life of your own accord Shine. Be strong. Believe. Believe in yourself Like an artist, show what you think Go on, do it without a blink Let your actions speak volumes, for once let the storm have its way Angst like an artist Live a dream. Live your dream. Like an artist. -Ayushi Nayak 

Tbh. Today I didn't study. Or maybe, some study that was round about naught.  This for complete lack of trying. Honestly.  Now, on most occasions, these past few years, I would have felt guilty and would have rotted inside. To a point of depression.  But curiously, today I didn't. Why you ask? I had my wits about. Therefore.  Point is, us, humans can do anything I think. No goal is too big. Far but not unreachable. All you need is a map and perseverance. Let the two be your guide. You'll reach your destiny. With pleasure.  I am trying to command my mind these days.  For it is a beautiful servant but a terrible master.  And do you know something? For as long as I have my calm, I don't care if I really reach my destiny. I want to face every eventuality being what I believe I am.  <<Some brilliant random thought I forgot>> I don't care for what I don't yet have, but definitely for those attributes that define me and I have  n...

Q.Do women sometimes not realize that they may be in love with someone? A.Yes they don't maybe because at the time when they are supposed to realize that they love the guy, they don't know if they at all love him or not, or maybe further they are unable to differentiate between love, lust or mere passion towards him. Maya is a girl. If it is not painfully obvious. And here is her story. So, this guy about whom she had never heard of before approaches her, who later turns out to be an acquaintance (a rather close one). They both then have an online verbal spat due to which the guy finds her sapiosexual and is evidently in love with her, worse they dissolve all their differences over time and she keeps catching the guy staring at her often at their workplace. Eventually, she find that the guy shares a common hobby about which they both are equally passionate, so he gets attached to her some more. She never realized until just a few days ago how much she misses talking to him, ...

At any moment, your situation is the way it is whether you like it or not. When you fight the truth of the way your situation is, you create a state of fear, upset, and tunnel vision. You destroy your ability to find solutions and tend to make your situation worse. To handle a situation, you need effective action, not the inner state of resisting. You remove the resisting and restore your effectiveness through a process called “Letting Go.” To see an example of letting go, find a time in your life when you actively resisted something. Then, for whatever reason, you stopped the resisting and said, “The heck with it.” You stopped fighting your situation and moved on with your life. Notice what happened the moment you did this. You got your peace of mind back. The fear and upset disappeared. You also saw everything differently. Everything looked different because the tunnel vision was gone. Instead of having 3 degrees of possibility, you now had 360 degrees. Now notice what happ...